I know….it has been a very long time since I made a blog post. Well, here I am, 8 months after VSG weight loss surgery and my life has changed in many ways, but although a lot has changed, a lot has remained the same. Let me explain…
I have lost 65 pounds and I feel better and look better. My confidence has risen in many areas but has dwindled in some as well. Although I’m still obese (5’2 190lbs), it is clear that I am not the 255 pound woman anymore. I now walk in a room and own it verses walking in a room and thinking everyone is talking about how huge I’ve gotten or how huge I am. Yet on the other hand, I’m disappointed. I’m disappointed because I’ve only lost 65 pounds and truth be told I haven’t lost any weight in well over a month and I actually think I’m gaining (I don’t know for sure because I do not have a scale at my current overseas location).
I know I know. It’s a marathon, not a sprint, but as I adopt new habits such as working out and eating less, I’m still haunted by emotional eating and binge eating, which go hand in hand. There is so much fear. Fear that I’ll never reach my goal or fear that I’ll gain it all back. It’s an emotional roller coaster. Some say it’s lack of discipline. Some say you need to get help. Trust me I have help. Professional help at that but it’s still a struggle and a process. I’m not complaining and I’m extremely grateful that I’m not where I started and the journey continues. I guess I just needed to vent because I feel better all ready.
In better news, I’m 35 pounds away from my goal weight of 155 pounds and I have gone from a size 20 to a size 14 (some 12’s). My kids and I are currently out of the country visiting my husband for the summer and enjoying learning new cultures. Hopefully I will blog/vlog some of our adventures. I don’t like to make promises anymore because I may not always hold up my end of the bargain but we will see what happens 😉. Until next time!
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