Some of you have been following my blog for over a year and have watched me lose 25lbs and 36 inches only to see me gain 30lbs over the course of 6 months. I am considering bariatric surgery…Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy (VSG) in particular. The reason why I am considering VSG is mainly because of the past couple of months, I have been experiencing some health issues and that is a huge no-no for me because I have two small kids I have to be here for. Let me back up. First and foremost I have dieted and made lifestyle changes, lost weight, then found it and it brought new friends. To add to that, I am an emotional eater. I eat when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m celebrating, when I’m depressed, when I want to have a good time, etc. That has been something that has been difficult to break since childhood so I know that VSG can help with that. VSG is not an easy way out because I have to go through surgery as well as recovery as well as lifestyle changes, and thankfully with my stomach being half the size I can only eat so much, which will help with the emotional eating and overeating. I did not want to do the gastric bypass because I am not comfortable with having to take supplements for the rest of my life because my body no longer gets nutrients from my food or the other longterm side effects of it….but back to the health problems.
Over the past couple of months, I have had some crazy things going on with my body. Mind you I still get in my veggies and attend zumba as well as walk weekly. The arising health issues have been a wake up call because of family history. There is diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and female cancers (Uterus & Breast) on BOTH sides of my family. Thank God I don’t have any of those issues now but with a BMI of 48 who knows what will come. I want to be healthy and available for my children. My strongest prayer to God after keeping my family safe is for me to at least (praying for many more years though but at least) live long enough to raise my children. On top of that I am tired of squeezing into spanx almost everyday, I’m tired of my knees hurting when I walk up the stairs. I’m tired of not being happy with what I see when I look in the mirror. I’m tired of losing weight only to gain back even more weight, and I’m tired of limited shopping. Someone took a picture of me on my bad side (you know we all have our good side big or small) and I saw how big I’ve gotten and I was devastated. When you take your own photos you can disguise it how you like and be in denial but when you see what someone else sees it’s like 😱😮😫!
I’m choosing this for me first and my children second. They deserve a healthy, active mother. I want to be an example for my daughter because I NEVER want her to deal with obesity. I’ve prayed about it and I have peace with my decision. I am starting an Instagram page to document this journey as well as a VLOG on YouTube so those who are considering this process can share in this journey with me. I’m still coming up with a name but as soon as it’s up and going I will update you guys. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCdttDd0lzzrYcsDETn-Eocw Is my current YouTube channel and it may change so I will Update you accordingly. I am prepared for the negativity and even more prepared for the positivity and good vibes. Like I always say I go through nothing for myself but only to help someone else. Agape and God’s speed.